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i have the most amazing boyfriend in the world... enough said.
today was fun. tomorrow will be too. i am happy. :)
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[28 Jan 2005|04:40pm] |
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havnt really updated in a while. things have been going good. im enjoying it. :). today dennis bethy and john paul came over.. and we intended to make pancakes but then chose dominos. yummmm 5-5-5 deal. basically just hung out.. now im at bethys and we're going out later. winter ball is tonight hope everyone thats going has fun there.
so yes. i have decided on one boy. i am happy. soo happy :) ...
HOLLISTER SHOPPING WITH MISS. SAMANTHA TOMORROWW!!!! quite excited about that as well. .well pointless entry i suppose.
- maura
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[23 Jan 2005|12:22pm] |
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I HATE SNOW
I HATE BLIZZARDS
I HATE ENGLISH MID-TERMS
NO SCHOOL TOMORROW :)
BETHY IS ON THE PHONE.. ::sighhh::
BETHY IS GREAT IN BED ... sleepover friday night proves it
so friday came home and hung out. bethy came over, went to the hockey game... came home completely frozen.. beth slept over, watched mean girls... saturday was DANAS BDAY! yayyaya sweet 16! but of course there was a blizzard and i was trapped in my home. as i am today. until later. no school tomorrow.. so late night tonight. im going to shower, and prepare myself. YUHPAYCE 1
<3
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[19 Jan 2005|05:40pm] |
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um so i was bored and bethy and i decided to do these where have you kissed someone. brings back memories...
on the cheek.
on the lips.
on their hands or fingers.
in my room.
in their room.
of the same sex. (PASHHH YEAH! hahhah.. bethyy)
of the opposite sex.
related to me. well yeah in a family way
younger than me.
older than me.
with jet black hair.
with curly hair.
with blonde hair & blue eyes.
with flaming red hair.
with straight hair.
smaller/shorter than me.
bigger/taller than me.
with a lip ring.
who was drunk.
who was high.
who I had just met.
who was homosexual.
who I didn't really want to kiss.
on a holiday.
who was going out with someone close to me.
who was my good friend's brother or sister.
who had been/is in jail.
in a graveyard.
at a show/concert.
at the beach.
in a pool, jacuzzi, or some type of water.
who was legally too young/old for me to have sex with.
with dyed hair.
with a shaved head.
who was/is my good friend.
who was/is in a band.
who has tattoos.
who is of a completely different race than me.
in the rain.
in another continent besides where I was born.
with an accent.- HA I WISH
with an std.
on a boat.
in a car/taxi/bus.
on a plane.
at the circus/carnival.
with a missing body part.
in the movies.
eskimo style. (hmm i suppose)
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[16 Jan 2005|03:14pm] |
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well i havnt updated in .. approx. FOREVER. nothing much to say, ive been in bed all weekend with pneamonia however you spell it. i dont even try anymore. i cut all my hair off on thursday. ok not really, but i got short angles and side part and its definitly shorter. im adjusting though. i miss my buds, i havnt seem them in like FOREVERRRRR. due to.. ive been sick everyday for like 2 weeks. its gay. I HATE CAPSTONE. i cannot believe i ever took this class, and now that i have to present, i get to spend my time where i should be in bed sleeping, on the computer, typing everything up. like journals that i never did. cool.
um winterball is soon. im excited. dom is getting his suit today, he just called and i had to try to explain my dress, but its hard to explain. i need to try it on again, probably wont fit since ive been eating so much. hotttttttttttttt.
um i guess ill go back to school on tuesday. ive missed alot so far, and mid terms are coming up. GAY.
i feel so confused lately. everything is stressful. i dont no what i want, anymore. so i decided im just gonna stop being so stupid about everything, and just let everything kinda go at its own pace, and when im really happy, then i'll know things are right, but im not going to force myself into anything anymore, esp if i dont no that its what i really want.
um pointless update, but hey im bored, and its been a while.
byee
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[12 Jan 2005|03:25pm] |
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hi my name is maura and i forgot how to update my journal! its okay i have no life anyway!
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wow things suck right now. i speak out of turn, i say the most hurtful things anyone could think of. i say things i dont mean when im pissed, and i know sorry cant ever fix that. but i dont know what else to say. i didnt know anything about what was really going on. i didnt know about the things i should have known before I made judgements, i just saw from my point of view, which i now see is selfish. i shouldnt be thinking about how things were, when someone else has it this hard. i should learn to accpect change, which i do now. i did alot of thinking, talking, and crying last night. i realized i am an awful person. and i shouldnt give my imput unless i know the whole truth. which i think i have a better idea of now. and i wish i could just take all that stuff back. cause it was awful. and i am sorry.
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[03 Jan 2005|03:17pm] |
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well havnt updated in like a week. alots been going on. kinda cunfused. went to ny. didnt help me sort anything out. friday was new years eve. and i must say that was a good time haha. so vacation over all. was fun- shopping, coffees, talks, viewing parties hahaha, boys, realizing that some people who mean the most are the ones that were there all along. this vacation was quite needed in my case, and im glad its almost over, so much uncalled for drama, gets old.. fast. of course since this is coventry.. going back to school will probably only make things worse. oh well. i need to leave.
i had some thoughts today. and i realized that some people i used to be close with, im not at all anymore. talked to a couple people who i havnt talked to in a while, it was good. tried to talk to others who i've fallen out of touch with due to more uncalled for drama, that just dont care to talk back. oh well. im tried of trying. such a waste.
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[29 Dec 2004|09:04pm] |
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so other than wicked immature, gay people, life is going just perfect.
went to katies yesterday and hung out with that lady all day, it was grand. went to the game with some people, that was fun. woke up pretty early today and went to lunch with amanda and katie then went shopping with my darling amanda! it was soo much fun shopping all day, than sitting in starbucks discussing all our problems and shit. i love that girl! she makes me laugh. picked up the other girlies and saw danas redone upstairs! YAYAYAY! i love it! can't wait to chill out and watch movies! exciting. had to go home instead of going to the game with everyone, due to excessive packing for ny which im leaving for BRIGHT AND EARLY tomorrow. just amazing. except not.
so basically my vacation has been grand so far. except for the random arguments recently with certain people. pretty stupid I must say. although I am not pissed, I was just agravated, and I didn't really feel like putting up with the shit just then. its all good now though, im not mad.
a bit confused on many things I must admit. dont have any idea what I want anymore. I should figure that out. I usualy figure things out while I'm away. I'm going away tomorrow, maybe that will help.
stranger than your sympathy
and this is my apology
I killed myself from the inside out
and all my fears have pushed you out
and I wished for things that I don’t need
all I wanted
and what I chased won’t set me free
all I wanted
and I get scared but I’m not crawlin’ on my knees
everything’s all wrong,
everything’s all wrong,
where the hell did I think I was?
and stranger than your sympathy
take these things, so I don’t feel
I’m killing myself from the inside out
and now my head’s been filled with doubt
we’re taught to lead the life you choose
all I wanted
you now your love’s run out on you
all I wanted
and you can’t see when all your dreams aren’t coming true
it’s easy to forget,
when you choke on the regrets,
who the hell did I think I was?
and stranger than your sympathy
and all these thoughts you stole from me
and I’m not sure where I belong
and no where’s home and no more wrong
and I was in love with things I tried to make you believe I was
and I wouldn’t be the one to kneel before the dreams I wanted
and all the dark and all the lies were all the empty things disguised as me
Stranger than your sympathy
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[28 Dec 2004|12:12pm] |
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hm so christmas was... amazing. day after i had to work? gay? yes. went to amandas and hung out with the ladies, then to danas. hm it snowed, slept at bethys. wow so much snow, bright and early went to providence place with the girls, "bought" alot of things. haha. it was fun. hm came back here with bethy and cleaned up allllllllll the presents that were downstairs and then derek and jp came over for "viewing party" of napoleon. such an amazing movie, classic.
tonight ill probably see benjamin, and IM GETTING MY HAIR CUT!! yayyayyy.. im so excited. i think its tomorrow im getting it done. its definitly needed. thursday i leave for ny, great. except not at all. new years eve should be fun. cannot wait.
"it's been a long, long time since i got you on my mind. and now you are here, i say it's so clear, to see what we can do baby, just me and you..."
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new journal as you can tell... comment to be added
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